The Road Less Taken
You've cast comfort as the quiet antagonist of your life — the cushy office job, the stable American future, the privileged life you could "easily" keep — and moving to Japan as the deliberate refusal of it. You catch yourself dressing up comfort as caution ("learning Japanese is a waste of time" was really "seeking comfort disguised as self doubt"), and you keep choosing the harder path precisely because the insulated one, you're convinced, leads to mediocrity. This is the road less taken you'd rather be addicted to: to live rather than merely survive, even when the discomfort has no immediate payoff.
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- now Jul 7, 2026Potential man must die.
My life is circling back towards self doubt and fear. It seems the most difficult thing for me is to calm myself down and to simply proceed
- note Jun 25, 2026Avoidance
Can't run away from your problems, yet it's easy to defer them to the point of ruin... Anyone who has interacted with me for an extended per
- now May 7, 2026LOCK IN LOCK IN LOCK IN
Well, well, well, things are starting to ramp up. And by that I mean not really except the date is fast approaching for my eventual move to
- now Apr 6, 2026Dreams Versus Safety
As an update from the last Now note, I've tied up a couple loose ends, but not completely. The L-file is in a more acceptable state for me a
- note Mar 17, 2026Reason for Japan
I became interested in Japan by proxy from all the media I've enjoyed over the years. Since middle school, I had so many things that I was i
- note Mar 9, 2026Japan's Special Aura
What has fostered the growth and development of art in Japan? I have this feeling that there's more to Japan than it meets the eye when it c
- note Feb 20, 2026Addiction
I seem to have a very addictive personality. Lately, I've been having trouble getting off doomscrolling on YouTube shorts and spending a lit
- note Feb 13, 2026Current Objectives
My continuous list of objectives. MAIN - Build and focus on a single online business (podcast? community hub?) - Make a structured outline f
- note Feb 7, 2026Hermit
I am a lowkey hermit. At least, in terms of my social relationships. I was wondering why I've become a sort of recluse where I'll disappear
