Journal with Witch

Why am I tearing up?

The last episode on the face of it I think isn’t super sad or depressing, in fact, it is very uplifting and cheerful. But if it was just a simple happy message, why am I shedding tears?

The specific scene I started tearing up on is when Asa is recalling all of the things Makio said to her as well as her parents comments

I believe the line that really hit combining all these contexts together was the question her friend Chiyo asked: Takumi, did you think your life was over?

Asa mentions all of her tragic life and all of the things that are on paper something that can allow her to write deep lyrics She laments her plainness

This from my feelings, was like a direct call out to myself in the fact that I know I have so much going for me, a lot of good and some bad, yet why is it that it’s so hard to become someone great, or unique. Why am I still so plain? More in the context that I feel I want to make cool and meaningful stuff, but I continiously have to confront that struggle over and over again. Perhaps it’s the loneliness and realization that I will never get a definitive answer to it all.

No I want to be who I want to be

It’s like myself telling me to stop thinking so hard about it and simply be. Not exist, but live…

Man, I’m still tearful right now. The type that’s lingering and I find it more and more suprising that I’m reacting to it this way.

I am really trying to word what is resonating with me. I already knew that this would be an anime that I love cause I kept noticing how profound or I guess how beautiful some of the simple quotes are in the show are. They are things that I feel I haven’t able to properly appreciate until recently when I’ve been trying to introspect on my own life.

Simple things like Your efforts may not ever